A PARADIGM SHIFT
Today I want to share a revelation I had [as well as an apology to my boys].
You see, I am wired as a “Doer.” I thrive on lists and checking off completed tasks. I feel most accomplished and successful when I am productive, however; as a SAHM, my usual standards of success need to adapt.
Currently, I’ve been working on my business launch, a message [sermon] I'm preparing for church, several DIY projects on-the-go and hitting the gym hard daily- all while running a household, raising my boys and investing into my marriage and friendships. These are all good things, but it requires proper prioritization and balance.
Sadly when I try to work during daytime hours, I can often become frustrated with my boys due to all the starts and stops, the distractions and painfully slow progress. Today I thought to myself: Can’t they just STOP interrupting me?!
THIS. This is a paradigm shift in my perspective. I have such a short window of time where my children are going to be this dependent on me. These are short, sweet years and I don’t want to take them for granted.
Dylan & Kyler, I am so sorry. You ARE my priority and my parenting will reflect that.
To my amazing three-year-old boy: You are a three-ager in full force, but you are kind, tender-hearted, wild and FUN! You have the best laugh I have ever heard. When you struggle with patience, I promise to try to be more patient so that I can teach you patience. I promise to listen to your stories and rambles with interest.
To my sweet one-year-old babe: You are sweet, silly and developing a sassy side, which I love. I know I have been overwhelmed at times seeing how you have mastered baby gates, escaped into the basement once and can even climb onto the kitchen table! [#moderndayHoudini] While you give me at least one heart attack a day, it’s an honour to be entrusted to care for you and keep you safe.
I want to be a joyful, patient, calm and softer mom. If anyone deserves a mom who possesses these traits, it's these two.